December makes all of us think and similarly it is just about the time when I am looking back to see what I made of the year…I was making the list this year and found that it came out to be more interesting than I had imagined. I feel happy about this year in many ways and many of my wonderful friends have made it possible for me to look back and do nothing but smile at 2010. These are those very small things that are generally not on our horizon to work on, but its amazing what they can do you your life.

This year has made me stronger in ways more than one – I overcame many of my long standing fears. All these are either gone or are on their way out from my life…thanks to 2010!

  • Fear of animals – Thanks to dearest Whiskey I love cats now and can imagine playing with animals
  • Fear of water – Have started to get over it, at least I have made a start this year. Well begun is half done!
  • Fear of not being able to survive a loss : Lost some very dear people/friends but came out stronger.

 Some other realizations that happened over the last 1 year: 

  • Health is the best gift I can give to myself. 10 months of crazy headaches taught me how to take care of myself and why is it so important.
  • My career is a part of my life, NOT my life. Where I work should not dictate my quality of life. I am always entitled to a good quality of life, I own the key to it, no one else.
  • Living alone is apparently a sign of strength but that can gradually make you weak. Loneliness is a disease.
  • Growing up as  tomboy all of my life, surrounded by only boy friends, I always thought (assumed?) that I understand men…but I realized that I really do not. They are hard to understand and they think very different from women.
  • It is important to make a fool of myself once in a while. Those who accepted me in my foolish moments are the ones who will stay. As Tolstoy puts it – “The true measure of a man is how he treats someone who can do him absolutely no good.”
  • It takes courage to ask for help with your life and I think I am courageous enough to accept that I am not a Valkyrie every day of my life. I cannot solve everything on my own, the control freak in me has to give up when it comes to my life. The 10% of the days when I am not a Valkyrie, tell me how magnificently strong I am for the rest 90% of the days.
  • I am not the only one who does not have an instruction manual to life. Everyone else is also making mistakes and figuring it out.
  • If I were to put any instruction on the book of life, the only one would be – “Make sure you have fun along the way”.

 Cheers,

Akanksha

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